For the previous few nights, I dreamt of you again. And every single time when I dream of you, I will be late for work because I just don't want to wake up from my dream. That is when my dreams are so much better than reality because I know I will be waking up to nothing. I even forced myself to stay asleep and continue dreaming until you slowly faded away, that's when I woke up.
It's so difficult for me to wake up smiling these days, it's not like before anymore. I still remember how you used to wake me up everyday before you head to work. You will always kiss my forehead goodbye and I will wave to you while you were standing at your door. I can't get that image out of my head and I don't think I ever will.
The hard cold truth is that I might never be able to feel you anywhere near me again. But I still chose to hold on because I really don't want to give up on you anytime soon. I can't give up on someone I love so much, someone whom I know deserves everything in the world.
I am alive now because I still see visions of us and I keep manifesting it in my mind, hoping it will come true someday. I pray everyday for you to be safe and healthy, and I hope you are taking good care of yourself.
It's ok if you don't reply my messages. Just always remember that no matter how much time has passed, I will always be here. Time will prove my words, and actions. Time will prove everything.
And even if it takes a lifetime, I will use a lifetime to prove it. I will use a lifetime to chase after you. Because you are worth a lifetime. That's the only thing I can do for you now. And I still want to do it. I want to do it forever.
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