I wish I didn't have to still remember here as my shelter.

I hate you but I really hate myself more now for still letting you get to me. I hate you but I love you more than that and it's still eating me up inside. I hate you but I love you enough to forgive you. I hate you but if I'd got a chance to restart everything or walk a new path down with you, I will not hesitate in making my decision.

I hate you, but unfortunately, I still want you to be my forever. And that will always eat me up.