Day 43:

"I wanted words but all I heard was nothing."

Never knew what is it like to cry every single day, never knew what is it like to miss someone so fucking badly but that person isn't around. Never knew what is it like to lose my whole fucking world, never knew what is it like to live in regrets. Never knew what is it like to never have another chance again, never knew what is it like to try so hard for something. Never knew what is it like to be so strong on the outside when I'm breaking apart in the inside. Never knew what is it like to be excluded in your life. I never knew a lot of things, until 43 days ago. When I lose you.

这痛，我怎么赶也赶不走。你的影子，仿佛跟随着我。怎么办，好颓废。