Day 31:

昨天我又做了一些傻事。我真的不知道为什么我还坚持这么做，我真的不知道我其实还在执著些什么。但是我每一次想到你，想到我们之间所拥有的回忆，我都告诉我自己这一切总有一天一定会得到回报的。

you keep telling me to move on and to forget about you, you keep telling me not to wait for you anymore cause you will feel stressed by it. i understand that you really wna lead your own life now with all the fun and freedom you've been deprived of since you got together with me, i understand how you are feeling right now and of course, i understand that for you to get back together with me, it's almost impossible. almost. i'm not living in self denial, i know since day one that you might not come back to me anymore. but as long as i'm still in love with you, there's nothing i can't do and there's no time that is long enough to stop me from waiting for you. it might be tough for me, to see you having fun and being so happy without me in your life, to see you treating me as your friend. but i don't care. as long as i feel and think that it's worth it, i'm always gna do it.

5 months, 5 years or even 50 years. i will still be here whenever you need me to, and as long as you nod your head, i will be the one who brings to you happiness and love once again. trust me, that day will come. it will.

i miss you so fucking much.