It's the fifth day without you by my side. I haven't eaten any proper meals for 6 days already. Everywhere I go to, everything I do, memories of us will always surface in front of me. I don't know what to do about it. I don't know how to cope with all these.
2 days ago, you finally gave me a hug. 2 days ago, I finally feel you with me again. You finally used your loving hands to soothe my face and my heart. You finally showed to me that you still love me. Do you know how happy i was after that? You said you needed space, you said you needed time to be alone and think. Do you know why I was so afraid to give you the space and time you needed? Cause I am really afraid that you will never be coming back to me ever again. I have never been so afraid before in my entire life. You told me that your heart has already died on me, you told me that the chances of you coming back to me again is so slim. Do you know how devastated I felt when I heard that? My heart literally died, literally. But after that when I told you that I will wait for you to come back and revive your heart again, you told me "Ok, but not so soon. Not for now definitely. I just need my space for now." I saw rays of hopes shining on us again. I have never been so determined to wait for someone in my entire life. I have never been so determined in anything before in my entire life. I have only one life goal right now, to wait for you to come back to me and treat you right forever when you come back.
I will be waiting. I dont know what you mean by not a short period of time, it might be one week, 2 weeks, or even 2 months. I dont know. I will just wait for you to be ready and come back to my side again. I pray everyday, before I sleep, when I wake up, and even before I leave for work. I pray everyday for you to be by my side once again. I believe you will be coming back soon. I believe we will be even happier than ever when we are back together. I believe, and I will wait and I will prove it to you with my actions. I will.
I miss you so fucking much bao, please come back soon. Please. I love you.
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